For so long, I wanted to know who I was, what I wanted from life, and how I was going to do it.
I’ve always lacked in confidence, and yet this year, I decided it was time to take on the unknown head first.
I didn’t want to look back at this year and be disappointed. I self-loathed for so long, that I had enough. I wanted to be free. I wanted to put myself first and focus on what I truly love…
And that’s helping others.
2018 is a reflection of the confidence I now have. I have the confidence and self-belief that my story will change lives. Continue to change lives. My fundraising year will reach the £100,000 target.
I was searching and searching for John Sennett year after year, with no success, until I realised he was always there. I just wasn’t the person I wanted to be at the time. It takes time to be who you truly want to be. The unhappiness I was feeling was part of this journey. It was part of the daily battle I had to self-love. I couldn’t see who I was in the mirror, as my surroundings created a barrier. I created a further barrier.
The barrier is now broken. I love who I am. The bald head. The cute bum. My physical features. The mental strength I had to publicly share my mental health story for the first time in 12 years earlier this year. That took strength. Strength I never knew I had, until a single email opened my eyes. It opened my eyes to what life could be like. Life is what you make of it, and if I’m going to share my story with the world, I need to be honest with myself.
Honesty to me is my favourite trait. I’m an open book. I want people to know my story. The ENTIRE STORY!! I like authenticity. I’ll continue to show it. On here, and in person.
I hid for so long because I was ashamed, but why? Why should I be ashamed? The ups and downs I’ve had throughout my life are part of my journey. They’re part of me.
2017 has taught me to accept. Accept what happens and use it. Use what you experience, as someone else, somewhere in the world, might be going through something similar.
I promote diversity. I speak up about embracing who you are. This whole journey is about to take a massive leap forward with what will be my most challenge year to date.
The most powerful thing I’ve ever done. I’ll be using many parts of my story, and using them for good. I want to see discussions. I want to create a movement; inside and outside of blogging. I want people to realise that life will hit you at unexpected times. But, we also have a choice in how we react to it.
I decided to give back. Giving back to the community in person, and the world via this blog, has given me such a hunger for life, and how life can be explored through every experience you experience.
I am John Sennett. I’m proud to be who I am. 2018 is only 4 days away, and even though the nerves are now kicking in, and I’m slightly scared, I’ll embrace these feelings and will use them to my advantage.
If you’d like to donate to my first challenge; a 650 mile walk from Southampton to Aberdeen, you can donate below;